Thanks for the honest and very frank reply, I must admit I found that hard to read.
We’re all human and make mistakes, nobodies perfect. You mist enjoy something in life no matter how small though I’m sure? I assume that cause your on this forum your a fellow City fan and enjoy football and hopefully the wider sporting world?
You sound like you enjoy animals. If so why don’t you try and get more involved with that and perhaps looks to change careers if you gain more enjoyment that way?
I hope you find some happiness in life and can turn around what sounds like a very dark situation at present. Please always remember tomorrow is a new day with a blank canvas.
I wish you all the best. Take care.